I’m so glad I found this site. Here is my story. I started masturbating at the age of 9 (I think), when I accidentally had an orgasm while touching my penis – I felt really good at the moment so I started touching it quite often. I had nothing to come out, just contractions. I was fucking stupid I know. I even had a special way of jacking off – by squeezing just the glans, and this I suppose made is small consequently. I continued jacking off this way until 6-th grade or something, when I gradually started to beat it up normally.
Well I was in a persistent sexual arousal all my teen years, I think it was natural anyway, but was overdoing it (one to ten times a day). I had no symptoms of sexual exhaustion except the small bones and an attitude of a coward, always afraid that someone may beat me up. But the erections were pretty solid, I remember my first girlfriend in 9-th grade, when we were kissing I had a boner of steal in my pants. She was a virgin though, so I didn’t fuck her at all. Then we broke up and yadda-yadda .. I started having sex, but my sexual power started to diminish around the end of high-school. I also tore my ACL (which I think is related) and had low stamina. Then I went to study in college and this was the beginning of the end for me. I got super isolated the first year (because it was abroad so I didn’t speak the language) so I was jacking all day and night, then for the first time I experienced the severe sexual exhaustion symptoms, but hadn’t even internet at home to browse and find information… so I didn’t actually know that it was because of my constant masturbation. The symptoms were:
– Extremely sweaty nights
– Frequent pains in the heart (and I was obsessed with the thought I’m having a heart attack and will die)
– Less severe panic attacks
– No erection power (even though I didn’t have full erections I was jerking it all day and night)
– Premature ejaculation (which was the least of my problems)
– Fucking gay ass aura
– Joint stiffness (in both my knees not only the one with the torn ACL)
– Severe lack of concentration
– Frequent urination
– Extremely severe depression (that didn’t break me up – I’m very proud)
– I even tried penile bending to try enlarge the penis by stretching the ligaments, how awfully stupid!
– No energy at all, and messed up sleeping cycle
I think that covers it, but I’m not done. Then I fall in love with a girl of my specialty. We hanged together a lot and I was pretty obsessed with her, then came the most awful experience in my life. After 5 months of hanging everything was super cool and we were watching tv at my house or something, when I started to touch her and gradually touch deeper until she asked me if I wanted to have sex with her. WOW – I had imagined this like 5 months constantly and waited for that moment … and what … I lost my erection, even worse – it was so shrivelled that I couldn’t recognize my penis, she touched it a bit and gave up. It was the most horrible situation ever. I just couldn’t have sex with the girl I loved.. I felt so useless and miserable.. I had this coming.
This was 7 months ago – from that day I started to look about explanation about my problem, and didn’t fell for the psychological part because when I had sex in high school I had erections and had sex like nothing, it was easy to achieve it. I knew something in the biochemistry went really wrong. Of course I reduced the masturbation and I’m now better, I have decent erections, but are not the kinds I used to have. I found this site and EVERYTHING, I mean – EVERYTHING made sense to me. I read every story, every article and now I know what’s going on. I only wish there was someone to tell it to me like 2 years earlier, but that is past.
If you have something to add or fix me, please!
Well I guess there is only one thing I have to say.. THANK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART! Your site is something that should have been there years ago, but better late than never, right.
G.M.
ANSWER
I’m glad the site helped you put the pieces together. I’ve seen a huge number of sexually exhausted young individuals that just don’t know what is the root of their problems.
I’m quite impressed of your determination to turn your life back on track. You will greatly benefit from Alpha-Amino, 5HTP-Nettle, Multi-Alpha, Ultra-Purified-FishOil and testicular cooling procedures.
Please, keep me informed of your progress.
UPDATE
A quick update here after 5 weeks on the supplements.
– Extremely sweaty nights – no sweaty nights at all
– Frequent pains in the heart (and I was obsessed with the thought I’m having a heart attack and will die) – no pains!!
– Less severe panic attacks – only mild panic attacks now when I talk too much, work out too much, or eat too much – WHY?
– No erection power (even though I didn’t have full erections I was jerking it all day and night) – I have erections by just thinking about sex now!!
– Premature ejaculation (which was the least of my problems) – I hold up to 10 minutes now wow..
– Fucking gay ass aura – fucking aura of awesomeness
– Joint stiffness (in both my knees not only the one with the torn ACL) – still some stiffness there
– Severe lack of concentration – less severe lack of concentration, but present
– Frequent urination – no frequent urination
– Extremely severe depression (that didn’t break me up – I’m very proud) – still feeling blue sometimes
– I even tried penile bending to try enlarge the penis by stretching the ligaments, how awfully stupid!
– No energy at all, and messed up sleeping cycle – much energy
So yeah, I’ve been having great time since I started this s**t! Thanks again and I will be sure to change to the new ones for the next cycle.
THANK YOU SO MUCH!