I dont know why I did it and yet again I failed hard! I mean …. I didnt even feel aroused and yet my brain searched for masturbation, porn, and excitement. I gave in just for a brief moment and it turned into an hour long hardcore session while barely keeping my dick erect!!
This is not normal and I cant accept it! I feel so bad and guilty after each failure and I know the next couple of days are gonna be sucky because I would feel cowardly again.
Really the worse my exhaustion gets the harder is to abstain. This is so ironic. Thanks for the support just wanted to share my moment of frustration and hopefully look at the very same topic before I do it again.